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Recap on yesterday ONLY - Saturday
There's Band practice at 8.30am. Yeah. Mr Ng was kinda unhappy and stressed up with something. Most sections are bluffing through all these while. Some can't even play. Haiz. When will they realise we're out of time. Time's running fast nowadays. Maybe they think they're good enough. Some think when they skipped band practice, they can participate for SYF, Im so sorry you're OUT! Don't take us for granted, yeah. We don't need someone like you in our band.

After Band practice head to Lot 1 to buy present for Renukha's Birthday party later on. After that went home.

At 5.45pm meet Yanling at CCKCS. We're going to Renukha's Birthday party at Farrer Park, Ceylon Sports Club. Board the Mrt and talk, talk and talked. Reached Farrer Park Station, walked to the Ceylon Sports Club. Hey, we got some sense of direction. We weren't lost. Yeah. Reached the wait for Filzah and Puvan. Nothing much happened, just some games and dance. Well, I got to dance. Yeah. Fun! Around 11.15pm went home. Reached home at around 12+am. Damn tiring and hungry. Arr.

For today, wake up late as usual. Did notihing ar. Got a haircut. So yeah, need to stuudy!

Sorry didn't update for the last few days. Been very busy. Family chalet, CNY celebrations in school and others. Well, let me just briefly describe what happened...

Friday
Chinese New Year celebrations was kinda okay to me. Just that some part were abit slow and boring. The lion dance troupe were quite entertaining. Haha. Love it when Mr Codeiro dress in the God's costume and throwing chocolates money. So here comes the good news, BERNINI CAME IN 2ND FOR THE CNY CLASS DECORATION COMPETITION! We're darn happy la. We know we'll come in 2nd cause 5A/5B is unbeatable. But we're first for the secondary 4 level! Efforts paid off!

Saturday/Sunday
Hmm, around 3+ went to East Coast park chalet. Having family gathering. Well, nothing interesting happened. Just having a relaxing moment there. Just appreciating the wonders of nature. Really nothing much to say. Went home today morning.

So, nothing else to blog. Happy CNY to all the Chinese people out there!

Let's not talk about my life today, let's talk about reality.

It isn't easy being a leader to be honest. A leader is someone who lead and motivate the members. A leader is also someone who'll get the blame for everything. Does most of the jobs and received all the complaints and insults from the other party.

Well, for me i'm already feeling the stress and depression around me. I tried to give my best to uphold justice, to lead and to motivate my members. But I feel that some party are not happy. It's hard being a leader. I've gotten insults and being hated badly by some of the members itself. They seemed not to appreciate what i've done. Maybe i'm not up to a real ' leader ' standard to them. I've got to deal with all the problems i had and in the meanwhile, regard the members feeling. But they don't seem to appriciate all of that.

No matter what the members think about me, whether it's positive or negative, I'll still do my best to lead and motivate them. That's my job and my promise to Darryl, Gerald and Zahidah.

God, please help me. I had to bear with this for a little while more...

Sorry didn't get to update yesterday. No time and my computer is taken, by my bro. Im gonna recap...

13 February 2007, Tuesday
Hmm. Forgot what happened. All I can remember is that I went with Isam to Lot 1. Yeah, meet him at 7.45pm. Actually planned to called someone to follow us. Raden having tuition, Hazirah was there at Lot 1 but must get home early. So just the two of us ar. Walked to lot 1 and talk crap as usual. Reached there roam around there to find my Valentine's Day gift for ehemm. So went into More Than Words, and browse through the bears. Found one... Very cute and huggish. So bought the bear. Finished buying, walked home... Then hang around under Isam's block. Rest for awhile then head home. Reached home around 10+pm...

14 February 2007, Wendnesday
Valentine's Day... Nothing much happened today. Just that I loved it when its reccess. Got the song dedication and other fun stuffs. Well, after that give her the bear. Asked Isam to give it to her and not mentioning my name. But she found out it was from me. Arrgh..

After that went for Band. But before that, somewhat quarreled with Ms Toh. I just couldn't believe it. She said teachers are complaining about me in class. Wth did I do? She said that to me almost everyday. Why are the teachers picking on me? Almost everyday teaachers are complaining about me. Life sucks... Haiz. Stressed.

Hmm. Today we did drilling for the whole practice. We're taking our driling video cause its part of the SYF and we need to send it to the CCAB. It's damn tiring but fun. Joanne did well with her mace. Did the part A and part B. We managed to finished the recording before 6pm... After Band, slacked at Mac for awhile then head home.

I love you... Hoped to be together again...

Finally, got an insprirations for my art 'o' level. Woohoo. Took me a month to choose the topic and select my best ideas. Finally... phew!

Shouldn't elaborate todays' lesson. The EL department have this express inter-class newspaper competition. So today was the day. My class wasn't ready at all and scored fairly bad ar. Results on this Wednesday, never hoped to win. Yeah...

Slacked alittle bit at class and went to F&N cook room. The entreprenuer club are preparing cookies for the valentines day. Me, once an ex-member just go there to help out. Yup, the cookies are nice, but too sweet. Teck Whyeans, support them and buy the cookies and give your loved ones!

After that, Isam and Raden come to my crib to do thier History stuffs. We watched Jackass 2! Woah, funny! A story about those daredevils or can be called stupid people who does stupid things. We laugh like crazy! You guys should watch it... They went home around 8+ and so here Iam, blogging!

Who'll be my valentine?

blogged...

Normal la, weekends is for me to sleep and sleep and sleep. Hmm. Well, today didn't get a chance to hibernate the whole day cause of the Band committee meeting at Lot 1 Mac. Woke up at 10am, its damn early for me. After the meeting, hang around at CCK park and go for an expedition. Reached home at about 5+ Yup, reached home. Mom didn't cook. So i ordered the family KFC meal. But then, when the delivery guy came. I already asleep. So Mom pay. Thanks Mom!

Slept till 10+, woke up the KFC still there but cold already. After eating switched on the Sis laptop. Good news, just installed wireless connection so can use laptop even at here, my kitchen balcony! Called Syariza... Talked nothing much cause she's outside and busy. Haiz, miss her... Thats all i guessed. Blog next time aite...

I missed your voice. I missed the times we had together. I missed our quarrels. I just missed when we're together...

Witnessed the O level results at the hall after lessons just now. The msg results were rather not promising. Maybe they last year batch had a tougher paper then the previous years. I wonder if my batch will do better or more worst. If everyone starts to buck up now, maybe there's chance of having much better grades.

Arrgh! Ms Toh wanna change my sitting arrangement. Fuck la. Alot teachers complaint about me. Wonder how can I survived without Winnie by my side. Don't feel like going to school. Nabey... I did nothing in class that caused trouble... Then maybe I should be defiance cause even when Im not, they'll still pick on me...

Aren't they once a teen like me, why don't they just understand?

Back from another day of school. Lessons were okay. Nothing much happened today or maybe I'm just ignorant? Can't think of anything to write, my mind's full of crap. Basically everything's fine today, friendship, schoolwork... all fine. Tomorrow will be the anouncement of GCE O Level result. Well, good luck to all the sec 4 ('06) aites!

Take care everyone! See ya.

Isam, this is part and parcel of life. You just gotta face it. No matter what happen, we'll be by your side. Always...

success

My recent success: managed to love and appreciate all the subjects. It's a great success for me. Yeah, can't believe to have loved those unlovable subjects; maths, POA and physics. I started to gain interest in maths after about 10 years of trying (to love it)?

Well, these are my targets (it's not too late) I wish to attain for this year ahead:

Me, Myself and I - to just be me and also be a better man
Well for Studies - to attain a higher grades
As a Band Major - try my best to help the members in any means and ways.
For TWCB - A silver medal. I'll be glad with even a bronze cause' I know we're trying our very best.
Yeah, overall.. hope it'll be a smooth sailing year ahead...

Reality...

Weird, second post for the day/night. Wonder what motivate me to write, write and write? See the changes? Made this layout myself hoping that I will really be placed back to reality. Im just thinking too far hoping I would achieve it. It is just an unreachable dream. Somebody zap me back to reality!

Belaian Jiwa, I love so. I think I'm missing someone now. Really misses her. Nah, too stupid for me to think about that now, too late. Yeah, hanya takdir menentukan ia.

to those who're in a relationship, treasure them. Cause' losing them is something painful, very painful. Learn to treasure them, atleast appreciate them. Wait till you find the wonders of love, and you'll understand what true love is.

truely regret...

nag, nag, nag

From what I noticed recently, more teachers are picking on me. During Aidil's lesson, I was being picked by him. WTF! He said i was dreaming all this while just because I couldn't answer his fucking question. What's the big deal huh? Maybe he's trying to be the 'most caring teachers' in Teck Whye. By all means, who fucking care. Few more months and I'm outta Teck Whye.

Great isn't it? Going to school with all the naggings around you. Some may be good advice some are just craps. Well you just have to entertain them, who knows maybe its a 'good' nagging session. Hmmm, enough of that, driving me crazy. Getting back to work or else more naging sessions. See ya later...

Exchange

Guess that I'm too busy and maybe just plain lazy thus neglecting my blog. Extra lessons and CCA after school had eaten up my time. Despite of that, I'm here today, blogging! Great huh?

Its a Saturday today and I had to attend Band exchange at Geylang Methodist Secondary School. 5 schools attended. 3 of them are a silver band and the other 2, bronze. Yeah, I hoped the Band members know where we stand now. It's time to really buck up. Heard comments from the judge that the clarinettist is too loud. Awww...

What more should I blog? Seems that I've done with what I wanna say. Okay peeps. Have a nice weekends. Shall blog again some other day.