been missing for sucha long time.
its just plain lazyness in me.
&yes, gotten my first pay
weeee~

so went to bought some stuffs at bugis and penin
went with aisyah.
hmm, now quite broke already
i spent about $120 on new shirts, shoes, pants.
& the best item, hoody!
been craving for that for sucha long time.

&treating nadia at swensens for her very belated birthday
together with nisah. date not conferm yet, still
treating isam, nabil &shabri a hoody each. heee(:

&i will set aside $100 monthly for my motor lisence
which im taking next year.
can't wait for that day. haha

ouh yah, on sunday
went to swensens at parkway parade to celebrate dad's
birthday. i can't finish the breaded chicken because im damn full.
before that went to eat durians at four season durian cafe.
one word, heaven.
don't know what makes the durian so expensive
2 durians at $65
but, its enough to feed 5people.
haha. now having sore throat.

now back in school.
most of my classmates left
but i didn't. too tired and lazy.
might as well just sleep in class
entertaining that fookmeng.

ok, need to do my ppt now.
btw, president nathan coming over to RP later
so class ends at 4. weee~

i know what you have gone through
its the same as mine.
we've hurt each other, both in the same way
maybe, that's true love?
im still waiting...

Hey(:
gonna talk about yesterday.
went to class, which was enterprise
boring problem statement, so we left during second breakout.
borrowed rp digi cam and planned to go to har paw villa.
but since its getting late and most of us having our respective IGs
we plan to watch hancock at causeway.

bolang, andy, laifu, weixiang, yong ann
wenr to catch the 3pm show.
me &aisyah didn't watch so we went to old woodlands
went there to take some great pictures
but end up piercing our lips.
it wasn't hurtful as what i thought it would be(:

proceed to band after that.
played gloriosa, instant concert, dikir puteri &sway.
quite fun though(:

went home eat, bath, smoke &sleep.

monday blues~
had a smoke with hams, aisyah &shah
at admiralty park during 1st breakout
sooo long since i had some smoke break w hams.
2nd breakout eat with them aagain
i ate alot; ckn adobo, banana caramel waffle, cookies & cream ice cream
ham are missed(:

went for sectionals around 5.30pm
gloriosa getting better &better(:
tmwr's practice at studio, must wear shoes
argh~

on the way to woodlands station
isam texted me, he want to meet up
to have a chat w me.
so, we meet at senior area.
its really been a long time since i last chat w him
damn happy(: haha
linger around untill 11.30pm then head home
i miss you ! sounds so gayy. haha

having culture UT later.
all the best to me for not studying.
haha.
its 3.05am now, played Guitar Hero III
now my eyes hurts and im starting to see stars.
alryte. i need some good sleep.
wansuay(:

its a saturday again
& i feel like going out with friends
laser quest-ing at cidans
sadly, i gotta work later.

next two weeks.
having band fest. &other performance
so, cant work for that week.
&hopefully im free on that saturday
cause' im going out w nad &nisah
treating them swensens.
&also, some time for me for tpb

for this week &the week after
its all about sch, work &band
can't wait for PAYDAY((:
hehe.

oryte, shall blog some other time
need to rush off to work(:
wansuay

Heyy(: im beginning to lose focus in class

i slack more than doing work

there are like piles of research that need to be done every single day.

hectic & tedious but i guess there are no other ways?

always end up sleeping and gaming all day in class

i SHOULD start doing my work already.

some photos taken in class:

trying to look sexy. btw, that's eunice behind

aisyah, me, weixiang during science class
us again, yeah thanks ah. with the opposite N ans S
Let me explain. bolang took the initiative to took this picture and set it as my

desktop wallpaper when i was away. Haha. This is yongann, bolang &zhanglei(:

sorry for the previous post.
yeah, i admit its my fault again.

i really cant bear this pain anymore.
its hurtful to my heart
i post the previous blog
cause' i want you to hate me
when you read it
& i want myself to hate you when i read it
so that i can really move on.
it is like the only best way out for me
to get rid of my affection towards you
down deep in my heart.

i have tried every means and ways to move on
but i just cant. idk why.
i know you cared for me as a friend
& i know what you have been facing through all these while.
i would like to kneel down on my knees
& apologise to you.
i'm sorry once again iza
its hard for you to make the decision.

&whatever i post before are just my thoughts
it is never meant to hurt you in anyways
and some are just for me to read
so that i'll hate you and therefore move on.
its a bad thing to do, i know
but theres no other ways for me.

&its up to you now
you decide how we should end this thing
cause im just very blur.

alryte.
i've read enough,
i've seen enough,
i've heard enough.
alot of unanswered qns left to be answered by her.
but i guess, some qns have no ans to it.
perhaps hams, isam, din, aisyah and others said
are true.
there's no point waiting anymore.
she don't even care anymore
why she enjoy her love life while
i suffer here?
bodoh sak cicak.

i'll find someone better than her.
that's what everyone said.
yup, its hard.
but i'll surely find one soon.
i hope.

thanks to those who have borrow
their listening ears.
thanks to those, esp ham, din, aisyah
who always have to stop me cause i always talk abt
how miserable my life was now w/o her.
thanks to those liars who ruined my life entirely
thanks to those bitches, matherfockers who took my
happiness away.

i promise to stop talking about her.
i've forgotten about her now.
she's now a stranger to me
we're nothing now.
friends? HAHA.
i'll pretend nothing have ever HAPPENED within us
alryte. i'll now heed you guys advise.
yeahh...

all the best with your new love life.
i found you guys very sweet.
hope you guys last.
insyallah smpi kahwin.
wish you all the best in your future endeavours, stanger.
mark my last words from me to you.
cause i'll nvr blog abt you anymore.
'you make me realised who i am in your heart'
(:

i never left you for another girl
but you left me for another guy.
thanks eih

back to blogging
gotta jot in some feelings here.

i told myself to move on
but im just faking myself.
i told myself that there are other fishes in the sea
but realised there's no other better fish
i told myself to never look back
but im always reminded by those good old days
i told myself to forget about her
but the more i tried, the harder it gets
i told myself that we are not going to get back together
but i insist in waiting for her
i told myself not to think about her everynight
&yes i did, but it makes me go crazy and cry everynight

yes, this time im serious about this.
but i can never get another chance to prove it to her.
i don't know till when i will be like this.
only timen & fate will decide everything for me.

ok, back to real blogging.
went for a drink during 2nd breakout
at coffeeshop outside RP.
Yongann open table &bought 2 bottles of tiger.
don't know tiger taste that bad lah.
well, i guess im back to drinking.
only i know the reason why.

after sch, head to pondok and chill
ard 7 head home &went out to meet abi and the rest.
watching soccer at cck stadium.
saf vs trfc. 1-0
hahaa. lepak at abi's hall
and crack jokes all the way
then head home w isam and khair.

reach home and rush to complete my rj.
ookok
shall blog some other time(:
wansuay