im back(:
so im having my 1 week break.
but.. its filled with band rehearsals(:
i really wanna rest my mind &my body.
its ok, i have plenty of time to do so.

going to vivo tommorow with abi &kavu.
&&abi borrowed my lappy, soo. im missing my lappy wifey badly.
haha. make sure kau jage bini aku betol2.
good news, i got my last pay cheque.
bad news, it is stil on my hold balance. must wait for 2 &half days.
hopefully, it will be transefered into my bank acc tommorow.

wanna upload photos but they are in my lappy.
so i'll do it next time okk...
btw, im missing alot of people..
swensens people, kavu, isam, belo, nadia decades, aisyah, hamster.
random-ness.
meet up soon aite..

&mom keep saying things
that makes me wanna cry.
add on to my remorse state. haishh.
i felt terrible.
i promise to be a good boy now(:
1) no more going back late, as in reaching home at ard 5am.
2) won't quarrel with brother again.
3) do my house chores
lastly, be a fillial son(:

haish, i can't believe what my dad msg-ed me earlier on
everything went crashing down.
although its a bad idea to tell cos it will effect my life,
but im glad he told me &my siblings about this.
what my dad told me makes me love/treasure
my mom more, to the fullest.
i felt guilty for adding burden to my parents esp mum,
all this while by my behaviour at home &outside.
if i knew this would to happen, i would
have promised myself longlong time ago to make my parents happy.
but its not to late yet.

seeing my mum in a pain state
hurt me soo much. its worst than a 2years relationship breakup.
there's only one wish from me now
to see her healthy and normal again.

i had to blog about this to make me feel better.
sorry to you readers who felt sick &tired
about my emo blog. always talking about my downside of life.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOM

I was just about to switch off my laptop &turn in.
but then i decided to blog.
i know this is a bad way to start back my blog
but im gonna say it anyway.

i guess i won't bother waiting anymore
i've decided to let go
i know that you have some other guy, it's obvious
but im still waiting, why?
because this is true love i supposed.
i've shown you my sincerity &that's the best i can do.

im gonna move on w another girl.
yes im desperate. desperate to be in love again
i miss the 'feeling' of being love.
&i hate the feeling of 'jealousy' it sucks &hurtful
this is just too much.
but i can still be your listening ears
someone you can still rely on.
i won't interfere w your whatever-relationship
you're having right now.
we shall be friends now.
all the best okay?

this is not meant to hurt you
it's just to console myself.
i hate this post but i had to.
to say what i wanna say.

Blog's back(:
will update soon. do wait