I couldn't sleep at night
always thinking of why im such a fool.
you know why?

because,
these few months, its just about me &her.
Finding ways on how i can improve when we get together.
telling my friends about her
telling them how lucky i am to have her.
when they we went chicks hunting
i would not be that excited, why?
cause, i knew already have a girl waiting to be my present.
i think of her all night, almost everytime i talk.
she would be one of topic to talk about.
&im always scared, what if i might lose her.
but i felt confident that we would get together.

but thing changes.
&my hope were shattered into pieces.
yeah, its my fault again.
cause we drifting apart. i did not
contact her due to other commitments.
school, work, cca.
but i just want you to know that
you are always in my mind.
no matter where i am,
no matter how busy i am.
im sorry if i have to avoid you
for the moment. until i fully forget
what happened within us.
i have to forget the memories i have w you.
until it come to an extent where i totally forget
your name &everything about you; when we're back to strangers
this is too hard and harsh for me
but i have to do it this way.
the only way for me to completely move on.

bottomline, im doing all of these for her.
&never for myself
i really wanna see you smile always
i wish you all the best
find a better guy, i know you have found one.
keep smiling always.

atleast there's something to blog about.
meeting her after school tommorrow
to have a chat and she's sending me to work tomorrow
wee~

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Jika ada kesilapanku
Maafkanlah diriku oh sayang
Dan izinkan aku bertanya
Mengapa kau berubah hati

Kiranya kau ada penggantiku
Aku mendoakan kebahagianmu
Walaupun aku merana,
Namun, kebahagianmu adalah kebahagianku

Walaupun hatiku kau lukai
Namunku masih menyayangi
Kerana sehingga waktu ini
Cintaku masih untukmu

Oh sayang di mana kau berada
Janganlah kau lupakan aku
Ingatlah aku walau sesaat
Seorang insan yang terluka

feeling damn down now :(
really need someone to talk to.
i'll not be bloging that often
since there's really nothing in my life
anymore.
take care pple

serjie asked me to do this quiz
long time ago. haha.
so, i'll do it now(:

qn1. what do you enjoy most?
ans: smoking(:

qn2. who's more important to you?
ans: family &brotherhood

qn3. who is the person you trust most?
ans: parents(:

qn4. do you have enough confidence?
ans: i never have.

qn5. if you have a dream come true, what will it be?
ans: to rule the world. XD

qn6. how do you define love?
ans: love cannot be defined, it can only be experience. (:

qn7. what is your goal this year?
ans: continue my 2nd year in RP

qn8. do you believe in eternal love?
ans: unless trust exsists.

qn9. have you broke someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
ans: never, im not that cruel. haha

qn10. what feeling do you loved most?
ans: better not say here. XD

qn11. what are you doing this quiz for?
ans: my friend asked me to do.

qn12. what feeling do you hate most?
ans: being stress but don't know about what.

qn13. do you cherish all friendship of yours?
ans: not all, cause they don't deserve to be cherished.

qn14. do you believe in god?
ans: of course!

qn15. what do you think is most important in your life?
ans: hapiness is all i ever wished for

qn16. who do you hope to be always there for you?
ans: family, tpb, friends

qn17. anyone you like/dislike now?
ans: alot in my mind, better not say out XD

qn18. what would you like to do now?
ans: end this quiz.

qn19. do you deserve love?
ans: hmm, maybe

qn20. if you can turn back time, when will it be? why?
ans: 17 years back. get rid of my sins i've collected since then.

yeah, that's all(:

hi everyone!

bolang here today and this is the 1st time i team with haziq.
DAMN HAPPY , he is still the person who distracts me.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

ok, its time for me to go and do our ppt. BYE!

P.S: BOLANG ROCKS LA.HAHAHAHAHAHA

Last day of term break
was work day for me.
swensens was filled with customers
cause' its fathers day today
which i only came to my knowledge at that point of time
work are getting boring + lifeless
after the fun people are leaving.
~arrgh, aisyah. felt sad for her :(

after work head to marsiling
&meet up with aisyah at the void deck
chat and eat for a moment &went back to JE
to meet up with ezam.
he wanna check his roster.
linger ard IMM then wait
for syukri to finish his job.
aisyah had to go off early to meet 'an
so me, ezam &syuk played dai dee.

yeah, went home by train
with ezam, syuk &fuad.
reached home ard 12.30am
thats all. need my bath.
&some rest for tomorrow's lesson.
wansuay(:

heyy,
back to blogging.
went to class bbq yesterday at pasir ris
reached late ard 12.30am
which everbody was already relaxing and
had stopped bbqueing
sat with the guys by the beach side
and they asked if im still a virgin.
haha.
after eating and some card games,
we went to the maze.
only yong ann, me, faez &stephen went in
cause the rest refuse. its dark &lotsa
spider web, but its not that scary afterall.
yup, managed to get out of the maze.
after that went to the mangrove walk.
its dark and scary.
we took the shorter route out.
went back to pit and talk crap all the way
till the sunrose.
so today early in the morn, walk by the shore
to pick up cockles. haha
alot of crab holes and we say something
like a turtle nest. not really sure
if it is turtle nest. tried digging but too much sea flies.
yeahh. so packed up and before gg home
ate breakfast at macdonalds.
took the train home then walk w yong ann &teong chye.
reached home, bath, eat then sleep.
woke up at 8pm and nobodys home
mom, dad &sis out to catch kungfu panda.
bro out w friends.
soo, im all alone. haha.
ok peeps, take care alrytes!
wansuay

its time for me to say something yeah.
something i think should be said.
cause the person deserves it.
yeahh.

shes the one whom stand by me
all the time even without me realising.
shes the one whom ive gone thicks and
thins together.
shes the one whom care for and prays for me always
shes the one whom always send a goodnight wish
to me everynight.
&shes the girl whom i hurt the most but she
still wait and hope for us to be together again
shes the one i truely love and hope to be together again.
shes my past for now, but i'll make her my present.
i love you

yeah, its you ameng(:

ahh~
work was great today. (:
with some customers who just make my day.
idk why customers today are superbly funny and friendly.

there's one customer who ordered
coit tower, an ice cream,
&he says 'do you mind if you don't place the small american flag
ontop of the ice cream, no issues' haha.
don't know what he's up to with the americans.

another customer was funnier.
i served him his banana split he ordered
then he says 'i want banana split not this'
&i told him that it was banana split.
& he keep on insisting that the ic i served is not
banana split. it goes on &on.
in the end he says 'just kidding, haha'

they just got on my nerves sometimes
but nevertheless, they brightened up my day.
'haha'

yeah~
now im all alone in my room
brother won't be home today
idk where he went.
so i can smoke all i want, in this comfy room
haha. ok. got to go.
take care peeps(:
wansuay

yaw!
last week of term break.
yet im still busy with stuffs and
have not fully recharge for the following term.
i need a break. ~ahh
work and igs are taking up my hols.
too little time spend with friends and families.

nevertheless, i always managed to dig some
time for friends and families. went to tpb picnic
and i swear it was great. this friday, class bbq at pasir ris.
its all about time management(:

work was okay and had always brighten up my day(:
though with the exception from some managers
and assholes + irritating customers who thinks
that they're always right, when they're not.

alryte, guess im done blogging.
take care peeps
wansuay(: