Dead and gone

My 18 years of living can never be more terrible than what I am facing now. All troubles seems to come at one go then it went away slowly, leaving a painful aftermath. Nobody knows how I feel right now, and no one should. Despite the sorrowness, they're always great friends whom I can turn to talk to; people like Naf, Aisyah and Abi. Frankly speaking, I would have already gone bonkers without them. Thanks great people (: